Hey loves. So I’ve been rather down and moody for a few months due to a giant change in my life. I’ve been living with my (ex) boyfriend for the past three years and we broke up this past July. I moved out and into my grandma’s not far from my old house, but I’ve been struggling to be positive so when I was offered a tarot card reading tonight I jumped on it. I haven’t had a reading since June which ironically told me there would be a “death of a relationship” and a change of residence. Shortly after, exactly that happened. Tonight I wasn’t surprised when my reading described everything perfectly to a “T” with dotted “I’s”.
It started off describing my current situation. It tells me I have been making bad decisions based on indecision, apathy, hesitation and negligence. I feel it’s talking about me holding back on my future. My “immediate influences” and obstacles that lie ahead of me are hope, faith, inspiration, optimism, MIXING of the past and present, good omens, spiritual love, astrological influence, pleasure fulfillment and the proper balance of desire and work, hope and effort, and love and expression. The ultimate destiny of my current situation will have arguments, uncertain council or advice, slander, babbling and circumspection.
Now as for my PAST, my DISTANT past was suspicion, slanderous gossip, scruple, timidity, shady characters and REASONABLE fear. I don’t really want to touch this, but this is what has been going on supposedly for at least a year because it keeps coming up as my distant past for every reading I’ve ever had. My RECENT past is continued oppression, following old ways, living in a rut, inability to affect any “worth while” change, entrapment in an unhappy situation. I have been refusing to let go of my past life since the breakup and it’s been ruining all of my friendships. Actually, I think it did ruin all of them, by being too emotionally insecure, and unstable about how I feel.
My FUTURE influences coming towards me are lack of sacrifice, unwillingly to make necessary effort, failure to give ones self preoccupation with the ego, false prophecy and useless sacrifice. The sad thing is, even knowing this my heart still doesn’t want to let anyone go. :(
My current MOOD towards everything is a false start, a cloudy outlook, unrealized goals, decadence, empty existence, vexation, cancellation of plans. I feel very helpless even though I should be moving on but this is pretty much everything in a nutshell so far. How OTHERS see me or how affect other people is trickery, contradictions, complexity, involvement, caution against indecision. Although I’m sure it’s about more than one person I feel my ex feels this way about me because of how we ended. My inner emotions HOPES, secret desires, FEARS, and anxieites that will come up in the near future are faithful, loyal person an envoy emissary, trusted friend, a stranger with good intentions, a consistent person, a bearer of important news.
The FINAL results of everything combined from my main reading is a quick witted, intensely perceptive. A settle person may signify a woman or widow of sadness, mourning, privation, absence, loneliness, separation, someone who has savored great happiness but presently knows the anxiety of misfortune and reversal. So basically… I’m going to be sad and lonely because I refuse to let them go. I have the power to change it, I know.
My reading didn’t stop there I wanted to ask some yes or no questions as well so I asked a total of four. Two about my ex, and two about someone else. I learned that my ex and I will NEVER get back together. The cards told me the exact same reason he said we couldn’t. Family. Security issues. Trust issues. I asked if we would ever be friends again, it said yes but there was going to be a lot of pain and arguing and the friendship would never be the same. It ended by telling me there would be a death of a friendship (again).
I then asked two other questions about someone else. I learned that NO, our friendship has not ended (yet but it might? the ending of the reading confused me) and that we will continue to be friends and that an opportunity should be coming up very soon to hang out. I also asked if this person CARED about me at all and it said YES, but it also said the person is very youthful and is more into “learning about life”. It said they were confused, indecisive or perhaps doesn’t even WANT to care.
That’s where I ended my reading. It’s so accurate every time, so weird! So sad at the same time, it flat out told me my life is never going back to the way I want it to be. I lost everything, now I gotta pack up my bags and learn to move on. Someone will come find me :) I know it.
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